Hello (: I’m Sophie; a 22 year old Performing Arts Graduate (First Class BA Hons!) with unruly hair (and apparently a need to show off a little :P)! Welcome to my Blog!

I am a BIG lover of tea and biscuits and books. A perfectionist with a (sometimes unachievable) need to be the best at everything. I love clothes and shopping and rummaging around charity shops and I am in love with the idea of love, and like to think I am finally beginning discover the beauty of it myself.

I was diagnosed with Anorexia back in April 2013 during my last year of University after struggling with disordered thoughts and behaviours for the majority of my student life. It was something I struggled very much to accept at first - I couldn't possibly be anorexic! - but with time acceptance has come and in turn I have taken my first steps towards recovery. In September 2013 my Eating Disorder tipped itself on it's head as I began binging, or at least what I thought was binging. In reality, it was just my body finally breaking free from my 'control' and taking action to save me. It is something that I
fought long and hard against, resisting for many months, stuck in a relentless binge-starve cycle fuelled by self hatred and guilt. I'm not going to pretend that it's been easy. I, like anyone else, have my good days and bad days, but I am determined to win, to become happy and healthy and that is exactly what I am doing. I have made incredible progress and whilst I still have an awful long way to go, a feat that often seems impossible, I grow closer and closer each day.

My blog, then, is a collection of my thoughts, of my struggles and of my happiness. It’s a diary, an outlet some place for me to post whatever I want or need. If you have any questions, please ask, and if you don’t… please just say hello anyway 
I would like to share with you my Tesco Shop (:

I literally ran out of EVERYTHING today. Carrots, Porridge, Apples… basically all my staples so I had no choice but to take a trip to the supermarket after work today.

I had a lot of fun picking up lots of shopping :P I’m so bad, I never really add it up so I never really know how much I’m spending, but to be fair, all of this is pretty essential so…!!! Yes, even the Ice Cream! :P

I had a few moments that I felt really proud of. I’m getting a bit bored now with Porridge for Breakfast so I was tempted to just not get any, but then I wouldn’t have anything for Breakfast so I made myself pick up a box until I find the courage to challenge myself with something else to just shake it up a little bit so that I’m not having Porridge EVERYDAY. I also got the BIG Sachets too because, well, because I need a big sachet!!! I got two Tubs of Ice Cream even though I was umming and ahhing oh and then for my BIG ‘win’ I got a different Yogurt to try!!! The Lemon Curd Big Pot is for Ads tomorrow because it’s his favourite :’), but I saw these new ‘Pick’n’Mix ‘ selections and decided to be brave! Usually my ‘braver’ option would be Strawberry Danios (or as I got last time Strawberry Liberte). I picked up 2 Pots of Greek Style Yogurt with Vanilla PLUS A LITTLE SUMMER FRUIT COMPOTE POT! I must admit I did look on the label, BUT I didn’t work out the values exactly, I looked and it kind of registered (it said per 100g), but I sort of just forced myself to move on :D Oh and I got my Sister a Natural Yogurt one with an Oat Granola Pot to try (plus my Mum some Nectarines :P)

Although I do feel happy with all the food I bought, I was getting a bit frustrated with myself when I was lugging three full bags halfway home to the point where Mum was picking me up. Why do I have to be so difficult? Mum said that she would pop into ASDA tomorrow for me, but no, I have to go to Tesco today because I don’t have certain things for tomorrow. I need to have my Porridge for Breakfast, I NEED to have my Carrots for Lunch. Any bloody normal person would buy a Bagel, or a Muffin before they started work, or could bring Cereal with them, or just eat at home! Any normal person would just have a Sandwich and Fries on their Break. They wouldn’t HAVE to have a certain thing. If for some reason they were not able to have the Sandwich they originally wanted, they would just choose something else. I don’t mean to be negative. I know I am doing really well. Actually I am quite proud that I actually WENT and BOUGHT all of this so that I would have stuff to eat. Yes, that’s a good thing!!!

I would like to share with you my Tesco Shop (:

I literally ran out of EVERYTHING today. Carrots, Porridge, Apples… basically all my staples so I had no choice but to take a trip to the supermarket after work today.

I had a lot of fun picking up lots of shopping :P I’m so bad, I never really add it up so I never really know how much I’m spending, but to be fair, all of this is pretty essential so…!!! Yes, even the Ice Cream! :P

I had a few moments that I felt really proud of. I’m getting a bit bored now with Porridge for Breakfast so I was tempted to just not get any, but then I wouldn’t have anything for Breakfast so I made myself pick up a box until I find the courage to challenge myself with something else to just shake it up a little bit so that I’m not having Porridge EVERYDAY. I also got the BIG Sachets too because, well, because I need a big sachet!!! I got two Tubs of Ice Cream even though I was umming and ahhing oh and then for my BIG ‘win’ I got a different Yogurt to try!!! The Lemon Curd Big Pot is for Ads tomorrow because it’s his favourite :’), but I saw these new ‘Pick’n’Mix ‘ selections and decided to be brave! Usually my ‘braver’ option would be Strawberry Danios (or as I got last time Strawberry Liberte). I picked up 2 Pots of Greek Style Yogurt with Vanilla PLUS A LITTLE SUMMER FRUIT COMPOTE POT! I must admit I did look on the label, BUT I didn’t work out the values exactly, I looked and it kind of registered (it said per 100g), but I sort of just forced myself to move on :D Oh and I got my Sister a Natural Yogurt one with an Oat Granola Pot to try (plus my Mum some Nectarines :P)

Although I do feel happy with all the food I bought, I was getting a bit frustrated with myself when I was lugging three full bags halfway home to the point where Mum was picking me up. Why do I have to be so difficult? Mum said that she would pop into ASDA tomorrow for me, but no, I have to go to Tesco today because I don’t have certain things for tomorrow. I need to have my Porridge for Breakfast, I NEED to have my Carrots for Lunch. Any bloody normal person would buy a Bagel, or a Muffin before they started work, or could bring Cereal with them, or just eat at home! Any normal person would just have a Sandwich and Fries on their Break. They wouldn’t HAVE to have a certain thing. If for some reason they were not able to have the Sandwich they originally wanted, they would just choose something else. I don’t mean to be negative. I know I am doing really well. Actually I am quite proud that I actually WENT and BOUGHT all of this so that I would have stuff to eat. Yes, that’s a good thing!!!

  1. toliveisanawfullybigadventurex said: Wow Sophie!! This is fantastic!!!
  2. amyduck said: Concentrate on the positives and don’t punish yourself on the negatives - you’ll get there one day but today you met some challenges and that’s amazing!
  3. metamorphosisofmeg said: You’re doing well and I’m proud of you. Baby steps, my dear, baby steps. <3
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